How Feannag Was Born

Fact: Crows hatch from eggs. At least, that’s their usual route. But not Feannag.

He hatched from my brain, and his birth was a complete
accident. Sort of. Maybe it was more a perfect case of serendipity. And his
place of birth? Upstairs in my mini office. He nested in my computer.

Some poets and writers have days of feasting on their latest project, typing away as
their ideas flow from mind to fingers. My writing style is more like bone-picking.
Searching to see if I can find that one elusive idea that stirs my inspiration
to spend hours in front of my computer being a productive writer. I have a
hopelessly long list of possibilities for my writing—poems, short stories, novels,
young adult novels, screenplays, pipe dreams. Sometimes that potential list overwhelms me
and makes what I’m actually working on even more difficult. The OCD behavior of
a writer: Oh, look, I could write about that!

Which brings me to my two sources of inspiration for Feannag: corvids and Scotland.

I will always remember the beauty and intelligence of the ravens at the Tower of London
when I visited there. I also love their friendlier relatives, crows. They seem to be everywhere.

I’ve been feeding crows for quite a while now. Every morning I step outside my back door to feed my little crow family, rain or shine. Sometimes three, sometimes five, and sometimes seven of them. I scatter shells of roasted peanuts for them If they’re there. Even when I don’t see them, I  know they’re out there.

They’re in the woods across the meadow, waiting. I call to them. In crow, of course.
Caw! Caw! Caw! Ca-caw! I think it must translate to “Food” because I’ve heard one of them,
the watcher, make those sounds to his family when he sees the peanuts tossed in the air.

I must have mastered fairly acceptable crow language because they answer me now.
I hear their raucous caws as they fly in. I love the way they circle and then
spiral down to land softly on the ground, on target. Sometimes they hop from
peanut to peanut, take one shell in their mouths, and fly off to a distant tree branch
to eat their treat before zooming back to get another one. Mannerly birds, unlike
the forceful  blue jays who arrive in a squadron, gorge themselves, and screech at their friends, making every effort to snatch as many peanuts away from the crows as possible.

And then, there’s Scotland. I made an overnight trip to Edinburgh in 2014, so, of
course, I had to go back to see more. When I returned there with my husband in May 2019, I never
imagined how fully connected I would feel to the beauty of the country, the kindness of the people, and the spirituality of the Highlands. I  have some Scottish ancestry, so I felt at home there. Scottish heritage runs deep here in the Appalachians, and I felt the strong connection between where I now call home and the lochs and mountains I visited in Scotland. As for Feannag, his name is Scottish-Gaelic for “crow.”

I didn’t intend to write a children’s book. In fact, it’s my first one ever. I think Feannag, who is a pushy little bird, wormed his way onto my list of writing ideas. He wanted to be born. And once he hatched, he bypassed the usual route of fledglings and their preparation for flight. Feannag was born ready, and his adventures remind us that we should “always, always have friends.”

When you read my book to your children and grandchildren—or to yourself—look for a thistle. It’s my wee nod to Scotland. And take time, especially now when you should have lots of time staying home, to look around you. If you see crows, observe them. They are crafty, highly intelligent birds.
They learn to recognize faces—of those who mistreat them and of those who are kind
to them.  If you are kind to them and give them treats, they will call to you every morning—and come back for more. Show them benevolence and learn from them.

Sometimes when you feed crows for a while, especially near a tree stump or a small outside table, they will leave you a gift—a stone, a button, or any small, shiny object they find. They leave the gift for you to show gratitude or reciprocation. My next book about Feannag will teach another important socialization skill for young children (and adults): showing gratitude and learning to say, “Thank you.”

If crows can learn to reciprocate kindness, so can we!

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You can find Feannag the Crow at http://www.csabooks.com. Check out their official website: http://www.spiritofappalachia.com/ as well. See what the wonderful creative spirits there are doing to preserve Appalachian heritage.

Meet Feannag!

Feannag the Crow will be flying in soon...

I’ve been a wee bit busy the past few months. Feannag the Crow will be flying in soon, tentatively in mid-March. I’m no stranger to writing young adult novels, short stories, and poetry, but it’s been quite an adventure writing my first children’s book. I’ve learned a great deal, which is always a good thing.

I’ve been blessed to meet two amazing women, Doreyl Ammons Cain and her sister Amy Ammons Garza. Doreyl is a brilliant illustrator/mural artist, and her sister Amy is a multi-talented layout and design artist and storyteller. Receiving Doreyl’s update emails containing her latest illustration has been a treasure. And now, after receiviing layout galleys of my book, I am delighted to watch little Feannag and his friends come to life. It’s a sort of birth experience for me to see my story come together with critters from my imagination who find their way to printed pages.

Feannag the Crow is the first in a series of two or three books I’m hoping to write to help young children learn socialization skills. This book is about Meeting New Friends.

In the spirit of Chinaberry Summer, I’ve included some of my favorite critters. (No spoilers!) I think both children and adults will enjoy reading about Feannag and his friends. Children will like the vivid, colorful illustrations. So will adults!

More journal entries will be coming soon, I promise.

My book will be available for sale at csabooks.com (Catch the Spirit of Appalachia). I will announce the release date as soon as I know it. There is still more possible editing to do on the proof copy when I receive it, but I hope there will be no more edits.

I will be scheduling book signings in the upcoming weeks. There will also be pre-ordering opportunities. You can check out muraltrail.com to find more information about Doreyl and the historical murals being installed in Appalachian towns to commemorate mountain history.

Meanwhile, we wait.

One Small Bag

One small bag

was all she brought

to spend the night at my house

I peered into her room

She sat in silence

                on the foot

of the bed

She had been there

                for almost an hour

                dressed in her khaki pants

                and flowery pullover shirt

Each time I checked on her

she was still sitting there

sorting through items

                in her little bag

                over and over

pondering each item

as if to make sense of it

A comb, a brush, her precious lipstick

(Every Southern lady must own a lipstick)

                a change of clothes

                undergarments

                a light cotton nightgown

a sweater

She was always cold

no matter what the season

I convinced her to change into her nightgown

She seemed to linger forever in the bathroom

Half an hour to change into a simple gown

Half a year to change into a different person

When at last she opened the door

and appeared in the hallway

                dressed for bed

a soft perfume followed her

Lavender and jojoba

                from my bottle of lotion

on the counter

She’d rubbed some

on her hands and face

I hope it brought her comfort

and gave her peaceful sleep

 Even now I keep

                the half-empty bottle

on my writing desk

Sometimes I open the bottle

to release its luxurious scent

                and for a moment

                its fragrance brings

                her back to me.

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Mother’s Day

May 12, 2019

Published here today for Sarah

A Golden Christmas

In December of 1971, my husband and I were newlyweds, four months past our August wedding day. Hugh was in his third year of pharmacy school, and he was working part-time as a pharmacy intern in a hospital thirty minutes away through Decatur traffic. I was a first-year high school teacher with all the stress that went with a demanding new job that paid $6400 a year before deductions.

I didn’t know anyone except a few colleagues from work I’d known for only a short time. From the third floor of our apartment building, I looked out on a parking lot full of strangers’ cars. Hugh had classmates, hours of study, and his internship to keep him busy, but I had hours on weekends alone. Mountains of papers to grade didn’t help my mood either.

We needed a Christmas tree, but we didn’t have much money. We decided to visit Young and Sons Nursery in Atlanta. We drove through wild traffic in our 1965 Plymouth Fury. We selected a small tree and braced ourselves to hear how much the tree cost. Mr. Young apologized. “I’m sorry, but that tree is gonna cost you three dollars.” We never forgot his kindness.

We were so excited. I don’t even remember how we got the tree home—probably tied on top of our car. Three flights up,  we stood the tree in its stand in front of sliding glass doors that opened onto our sunny balcony, and the limbs slowly began to lower and spread. The tree was much bigger than we had imagined. We managed to buy strings of lights and gold satin balls. The tree would match our gold carpet and draperies. It was, after all, the seventies.

But all the lights and ornaments didn’t keep me from feeling sad and lonely. My family lived several hours away. We had only one car.

Earlier in the month I’d decided to get crafty. My mother had given me a copy of a Lee Ward Craft Catalog. I had pored over its pages and found the perfect ornament I could afford. It was a gold satin and pearl wonder—some assembly required. There was no Internet, so I had sent off my order form along with a check. It took days for my order to process.

One cold, gray Saturday afternoon the order arrived just in time. I opened the package to see what lay before me: A Styrofoam ball covered in gold satin threads.  Small bags of straight pins, fake pearls, thin gold chains, and medallions. One gold tassel. And, last but not least, complicated instructions.

I set to work, sticking pins through holes in tiny fake pearls, attaching medallions, and, at last, adding the tassel. I pushed the circular hanger into the top of the ornament. It was ready to hang among its less fancy cohorts on our first Christmas tree.

Now fast-forward to 2019. Yes, it’s hanging on our tree once again. Is it gaudy and very “seventies?” Yes. But I have hung it on our tree forty-eight times since its debut.

And each time I hang it, I think back to the much younger me who crafted a remembrance. It pulls me back to that special golden Christmas in 1971, long ago but not so long ago, when we didn’t have much money to spend, but none of that really mattered. I was blessed to spend Christmas with the love of my life.

Each year that ornament reminds me of how quickly time has passed since that bleak Saturday afternoon in our apartment when I sat alone poring over the instruction sheet. I think of all the friends we’ve made through the years, and I remember all of the loved ones who saw the gold and pearl ornament hanging on our tree and who are no longer with us at Christmas.

After Epiphany, we will take down our tree and tuck decorations into boxes for storage until next year. I will pack away all sorts of ornaments: A peppermint candy cane reindeer made by a little boy in pre-school who’s all grown up now. Dinosaurs, sheep, stars, angels, and cardinals, each one clinging to a memory as surely as it held onto a branch on the Christmas trees of our marriage. I will store my gold and pearl ornament safely away until it’s time for it to make another appearance.

Some Christmas trees have a theme. Our tree also has a theme.

Its theme is memories.

In Memoriam: A Cautionary Tale

It is with great joy that I share my poem, “In Memoriam.” The poem took Second Place in the Mnemosyne Award category of the 2018 Georgia Poetry Society fall contests. It appears in this year’s edition of The Reach of Song, a poetry anthology published annually by the society. The title of the anthology comes from a poem by renowned Georgia poet Byron Herbert Reece.

In Memoriam

One by one

they drop from the sky

and find their perches among

thin, lithe boughs

of a leafless white oak tree,

now a sharp silhouette sketched in inky black lines

against an ominous steel-gray sky

Only a few stubborn patches of lichen

dare to cling here or there like crepe

left behind on the empty branches

Dried sunflowers in the garden

hang their heads in grief and disbelief

They know their end has come

The mourners are wearing their funereal finest

Sleek, ebony feathers reflect the slanted rays of

the afternoon sun but find no warmth in this place

Shiny, black eyes survey the sight below them

One of their own, felled by the farmer’s gun,

is strung from a rope on the barbwire fence

A warning, a sign to his kindred

They are not welcome here

They might share his fate

In solemn respect the mourners sit in silence

A brief corvine ceremony of peace and respect

Then all at once the service concludes

as if some unseen chorus master has waved his baton

They lift their wings and fly away together,

each one calling out to one another

in discordant voices only they understand

A benediction for their fallen comrade

                                                                                    Carroll S. Taylor

The judge for the Mnemosyne Award commented:

 “In Memoriam comes at the reader with vivid visual imagery. It reads like an artist’s black and white photograph, with sharply drawn contrasts. The word pictures of death and mourning are dramatic. The stark warning of the dead bird brings to mind violence humans commit against each other and serves as its own warning and cautionary tale.”

A Grand Adventure

“The world is a very big place, and you’re all in for a grand adventure.” – Mrs. Clara Sue Martin, Chinaberry Summer

Some years ago in college, I spent a summer working in Colorado. During a conversation I asked an older gentleman, “Have you lived in Colorado all your life?”

He replied, “Not yet.” An interesting perspective.

Growing up in rural Harris County, Georgia, I was blessed to live near all four of my grandparents. I knew my maternal great-grandparents, and I was one of their 122 great-grandchildren at the time of their deaths. (The number of their offspring has increased since then!)  

My younger years were filled with exploring nature all around me and listening to countless family stories from my grandparents whose lives spanned 1892 to 1994. Aunts and uncles added even more stories, and I managed to capture a few stories from my great-grandfather. I enjoyed living close to the mountains near Pine Mountain, and we could see Dowdell’s Knob from our front porch. Dowell’s Knob is the highest point in the county. It was a favorite place for FDR’s barbecues. I learned all about FDR and Bullochville which he later named Warm Springs. The President visited the area and was very involved in programs that benefited farmers during The Depression. My grandfather was one of those farmers.

My grandfather taught my sister and me how to identify wildflowers. My grandmother could identify all kinds of forest leaves. We never needed a field guide to flowers and leaves when we were with them.

My hometown is Hamilton, Georgia, and our careers led my husband and me to move eight miles south to our Cataula home in the woods where we lived for thirty-seven years. Throughout those years I made incredible memories—memories that will always live deep in my heart. It was the only home our son ever knew before he embarked on his own memory-filled life as a teacher, seminarian, and now a pastor living with his wife and daughter in Washington State. I’ve had quite a few adventures there as well, since we visit him and his family whenever we get a chance.

In the woods surrounding our Cataula home, I encountered interesting critters. Copperheads, rattlers, box turtles and snappers, frogs, a fox running across my deck, crows galore, lizards, hawks, bats, ducks, wild turkeys—the list goes on and on. Sometimes native wildflowers surprised me as I walked in the woods. All the flora and fauna of that region provided plenty of ideas for my writing. I kept it all in the writer’s notebook of my mind.

I approached moving to North Georgia with a great deal of hesitation. But why not move? My husband and I are always up for a new adventure. We’re now both retired from busy careers. First, we had to sort through belongings and general “stuff” collected during nearly fifty years of marriage. Then we had to get the house ready to put on the market. That was another adventure unto itself.

On to North Georgia with two cats and a dog! I must say, I have never regretted moving here. If my life is like a five-act play, this time in my older life is Act IV.

This area is a writer’s paradise. We live about twenty minutes from Hayesville, North Carolina. That brings me to an important point: North Carolina is known as “the writingest state in America.” I now belong to North Carolina Writers Network-West, which encompasses several North Georgia counties that border on the western North Carolina state line. I cannot believe how many published poets and writers are now in my circle of friends.

Writing is often a solitary endeavor. It is quite difficult to pull fiction and poetry out of my brain. Much of my writing occurs very late at night or even in the wee hours of the morning. At times, it’s as if I’m creating ideas and events out of thin air.

The writers I have met care about each other. We promote each other and offer encouragement. I now belong to several critique groups where we can feel comfortable sharing our work. Other groups I attend have readings by poets and writers followed by time for open mic readings.

The beauty of this region offers so much rich inspiration for writing.  I am very, very happy to be here!

Someone may ask me, “Have you lived in Georgia all your life?” My answer will be: “Not yet! But I hope I do.”

Now on to more adventures…

(With special gratitude to Glenda Beall and to all my friends in NCWN-W for the beautiful poems and stories you create!)

Adventures with Woody the Duck

When my grandmother appeared at our house with a Muscovy duck for our four-year-old son Zach, we couldn’t help noticing the gleam in her eyes. Not the duck’s eyes. My grandmother’s eyes. Her one-woman farm was a sanctuary for any critter that found itself homeless or unloved—a grouchy pony, a solitary sheep, a man-hating goose, a huge sow that loved having her ears scratched every day, a multi-colored assortment of orphaned cats, multiplying rabbits, a love-struck Peking duck (with a crush on the only rooster), along with the usual chickens, cows, pigs, and, of course, her newly acquired Muscovy ducks. She figured since we lived in the country, in the middle of the woods, and our son was a little kid, he needed his own duck. Later she would give him his own chicken. That’s another story.

We named the duck Woody. I cannot remember why.

Muscovy ducks don’t generally quack. In fact, they’re rather silent. The only way you know a Muscovy is around is by stepping in duck poop or by watching him eat your prized outdoor plants.

That summer we bought Zach a blue plastic kiddie pool. My husband dragged over the garden hose and began filling the pool with water. We were being watched.

Just as the water reached the right depth, Woody waddled over and hopped into the pool. It was quite apparent to him that the new duck pond was intended for him.

My son stood there, incredulous, as Woody joyfully began to swim around in his deluxe swimming hole. The look on Zach’s little face said it all: I’m not getting into that pool and playing where a duck has been swimming and leaving his usual trade-mark behind –a flotilla of excrement and downy feathers. Or maybe we were thinking that. The duck didn’t care.

We built Woody a chicken-wire pen, but, basically, it was just a suggestion. He ruled the roost in our yard. He had free run of the place. I planted a peony near the back door. I imagined how exotic its pink blossoms would look when they emerged in their glorious beauty. Woody waddled over and ate it. And ate it again. And ate it again. Every time the peony tuber proffered a hopeful sprout, Woody ate it.

My husband was working nights at the time, and I was home alone with Zach who was sound asleep in his room. It was before dawn on Easter Sunday, and the morning air was slightly cool. The sweet scent of spring drifted into my open bedroom window. Unwelcome noises began to drift in as well.

I was startled awake by the sounds of rustling feathers, followed by shrill yapping, more rustling, and running feet below my window. It was a sudden ambush by a small dog from a neighbor’s house somewhere through the woods. His petite hunting skills had led him to his quarry. I sprang up in bed. “Oh, my gosh, there’s a dog after Woody!” I rushed downstairs to rescue my quack-less friend.

As I hurriedly unlocked the kitchen door and ripped it open, before I had time to realize what was happening, Woody nonchalantly waddled into the room. The dog had disappeared. Of course, I hadn’t had my coffee, and I was still half asleep. I looked at Woody through a sort of surreal existential haze.

“It’s 5:30 in the morning, and there’s a duck in my kitchen.”

I had fed Woody plenty of times, but I had never tried to hold him or pet him. I wasn’t sure how he would act if I tried to catch him. His webbed feet had claws. But my only choice became clear. I screwed up my courage, reached down, picked him up with both hands under his stomach, and set him back outside. He didn’t seem to mind at all.

Lots of people celebrate the glory of Easter Sunday at a sunrise service. They go to church dressed in their new finery. They sing joyful songs about the resurrection. As I looked around at all the people in my church congregation later that morning, I couldn’t help wondering: How many of them began their day by wrangling a Muscovy duck in their kitchen?

Meanwhile, life with Woody continued. He settled down after our morning’s excitement and all was well—until a few weeks later when my grandmother gave our son another duck: Esmerelda.

The Death Star

We don’t have wimpy yellow jackets in North Georgia. Ours act like they’re on powerful steroids, and they’re always in a bad mood.

Some yellow jackets build nests in a hole in the ground. Some choose rotten tree stumps. Ours like to build aerial nests.

The first one we ever found was at our cabin, hanging from a small poplar tree limb right beside the hostas and our driveway. Hugh wouldn’t approach it. He wasn’t sure if it was a hornet’s nest or not. I took one look at it and said, “Now, you know that’s not a hornet’s nest. No self-respecting hive of hornets would built a ratty-looking nest like that.”

I slowly approached the nest, and sure enough, yellow jackets were buzzing in and out. I posted a picture of the nest on Facebook, and one of my friends didn’t believe me. She surreptitiously loaded my claim into Google and admitted later that I was right. (You can Google my claim, too!) We had to call an exterminator.

The next one we found was under the cabin deck, hanging not far from the basement’s outside door. Of course, we found it when we had just put our cabin up for sale, and realtors would be bringing prospective clients to visit. We couldn’t risk a collision between potential house hunters and stinging picnic hunters. Since we didn’t live here full-time, we had no choice but to call in reinforcements. Fifty dollars blown away by the wind and pesticide spray. Again. But no potential buyer was stung.

A couple of weeks ago, we discovered an aerial nest where we live now. A band of rowdy miscreants decided to build on a fairly low, thin branch of a river birch. Right on the edge of our street where we mow grass and where unknown trespassers whiz by in their ATVs.

Hugh had already experienced a run-in with yellow jackets the week before. While cutting thick vegetation on our property with his tractor, he ran afoul of a ground nest. He had to jump and run, leaving the tractor still running. He called me on his cell phone. “I’ve just run over a yellow jacket nest. Bring me every can of wasp spray you can find. They’re all over my tractor.” Was it the engine noise or did they just like orange Kubota tractors? He was left with seven red, swollen stings and an extra-surly attitude toward yellow jackets after that encounter.

One nest down, and the tractor offenders were vanquished. They shouldn’t have built in the ground where they had no defense against Hugh’s can of foamy wasp and hornet spray. But then, moments later, he discovered the “Death Star” in the river birch. The nest bore a striking resemblance to Darth Vader’s abode, and the jackets were buzzing in and out like TIE fighters.

Destroying that nest was going to be a challenge. It was a little too high to reach easily, and the entrance door was turned away from the road and over a ditch. It would be hard to spray and escape fast. It was time for an attack plan on the paper fortress.

The first attack was hopeful. Foaming wasp spray. Nope. Yellow jackets were still buzzing in and out. The second attack came a few days later. Foaming wasp spray. Yellow jackets were still buzzing in and out. The third attack a few days later involved using spray specifically designed for yellow jackets. They were still buzzing in and out. Healthy as ever. The fourth attack: Bed bug spray, otherwise known as Permethrin. Hugh was certain it would work. It’s found in shampoo for head lice, and we had seen carpenter bees fall out of their nests dead when we used it to treat the holes they were boring in an effort to eat down our house.

Still no luck with those wretched yellow jackets. They had even posted guards who were sitting on the outside of their nest, ready for another siege. It was as if they were thumbing their noses at us – if they had thumbs.

Meanwhile, we had an afternoon of torrential rain. We drove by slowly. The nest appeared to be hanging in tatters. We were ready to begin the fifth attack. Surely, between the rain and the Permethrin, they were all dead. Hugh grabbed his extension limb lopper and held it outside the car door as we drove to our battle destination. He looked like a medieval jouster, one who was determined not to spend fifty dollars. I got the car turned and ready in the escape position. We thought he could stealthily approach the nest, snip off the limb, throw down the lopper, and run to the car for a speedy get-away.

Well, the attack didn’t go as planned. The lopper shook the branch, and unseen, beleaguered survivors came after Hugh with a vengeance.

They were tough. Their queen was still alive. They were loyal. They had stick-to-it-tive-ness. One of them popped Hugh on the back of his neck.

That was the precise moment when revenge set in. This was war. This was personal. Hugh decided the only weapon left was fire.

Undefeated, he said, “Let’s go back to the house. I’ll need the bed bug spray, charcoal lighter fluid, a newspaper, and a lighter.”

Oh, Lord. “Okay, I’ll bring a gallon jug of water.”

I would be remiss if I didn’t mention that this conflagration occurred on Friday evening. You know, the night when a lot of couples eat out at a nice restaurant or go to a movie.

We gathered our essentials, and everything was ready for battle.

Hugh looked at me and made a profound observation. “You know, sometimes I can’t believe some of the things you and I do.” Me neither.

He squirted charcoal lighter fluid up on the nest. Then he used an extension grabber to hold the newspaper, lit the paper on fire, and touched his makeshift torch to the nest. Fire erupted in the yellow jacket death star.

At that exact moment, we heard a vehicle approaching. Our neighbor and his friend drove up in his ATV just as the nest was going up in flames in mid-air.

He gave us his opinion.  “That oughta work good if Hugh doesn’t burn down the woods.”

At last, the flaming nest dropped to the ground. The queen fell out dead along with her remaining loyal subjects.. Every time the flames died down, Hugh would pour on a little more lighter fluid . Revenge had become obsession.

White larva after white larva fell out of the nest. Poor babies, they would never have the chance to buzz around, sting a homeowner, or go to a picnic.

It was getting dark; dusk was setting in. It was time to wrap up the barbecue and douse the smoking ashes. Hugh looked down at the remains of the scorched nest. “You know what? I think that’s a Fibonacci spiral.” Poor wasps. They had no idea they were mathematicians.

Hugh checked the site of our fierce battle scene Saturday morning. Every single larva was gone, no doubt a tasty nibble for a furry, nocturnal hunter.

Aerial Yellow Jacket Nest photo by Carroll S. Taylor 2019

Deacon Brodie

Last month we spent a delightful vacation touring Scotland. I heard lots of great stories there, and I’d like to share the story of Deacon Brodie. I wrote this based on facts we learned from our local guides in Edinburgh. By the way, the Stevenson clan went with us. This was my second trip to Scotland, and both times I took a copy of Chinaberry Summer with me!

Deacon Brodie

Deacon Brodie was a good man. Or was he?

By day, William Brodie was a cabinetmaker, a deacon in a trade guild, and a city councilor in Edinburgh in the 1700s, but by night, he led a different life. He was a gambler with heavy debts.

A respected man, Deacon Brodie courted wealthy customers who appreciated his fine cabinetry work. At night, he gambled and ran up debts he could not pay. There was only one way out of his dire situation, or so he thought:  He must go to his dark side.

On the job, he was invited to enter the homes of prosperous Edinburgh folk. A cabinetmaker, yes, but also a locksmith. Unbeknownst to his customers, in his hand he held wax pressed against his palm. He pilfered their house key, pressed its imprint into the wax, and stealthily replaced their key. In due time, he silently entered his victims’ homes by way of his new duplicate key and robbed the unsuspecting victims. Later they would notice items missing and realize they had been robbed, but how could it happen with no sign of forced entry? It was a mystery.

Deacon Brodie soon fell deep into his new secret life. By day, he was an admired craftsman and father. By night, he was a housebreaker and a thief who used his ill-gotten gains to continue his gambling and pay his debts. Soon his night life became thrilling and prosperous. He formed a small gang with three other men.

Authorities were left scratching their heads, while victims were crying out for justice. At last, the police offered a reward for whoever could identify the night burglar and bring him to justice. One of Brodie’s own men turned him in for the reward. Brodie was sentenced to hang.

Now not every ne’er-do-well died the same way on the gallows. Some were “lucky” and fell through the gallows floor, the noose snapping their necks in the drop, resulting in instant death. Others did not fare so well. They danced on the end of the rope for as long as forty-five minutes, slowly suffocating.

Deacon Brodie was in denial. He didn’t believe he would die on the gallows. He thought for sure he would be the second kind of criminal. He would swing for a minute, long enough to appear dead, but for a short enough amount of time to be surreptitiously rescued by one of his men. One legend even says he wore a metal collar around his neck to protect himself from the noose. But Deacon Brodie died anyway, and he wasn’t one of the ones who lingered. As he dropped through the gallows floor, his neck was snapped, and thus ended his mysterious double life in 1788, only a few feet from where the Deacon Brodie Tavern stands today on a busy corner of the Royal Mile in Old Town Edinburgh not far from the castle.

Down through the years, in fact, down through the next century, the story of Deacon Brodie was told by storytellers far and wide in Scotland. His story was told to young people gathered with their family around their fireplaces. They heard the story of how someone who appeared to be honest and upright during the day could lead a dangerous, evil life of an obsessive gambler, a housebreaker, and a ruthless thief at night.

One young man who grew up hearing the story of Deacon Brodie was inspired to write a book in 1886.  The book was entitled The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mister Hyde. Of course, that author was Robert Louis Stevenson.

Deacon Brodie’s Tavern in Edinburgh, Scotland Photo by Carroll S. Taylor 2019

Mama's Cup

It was my mother who first introduced me to coffee. I was quite young when I realized that coffee would be a passion for me. I know, to some people, coffee is coffee, but not to me. I’ve discovered that coffee does not taste the same in every cup. After my mother passed away in 2010, I brought home some of her dishes. I now know that the coffee that tastes the best is what I drink in Mama’s cup.

A welcome aroma fills my kitchen—

a pot of fresh coffee brewing

on a bright, chilly morning.

Steaming dark magic flows

into my empty, hopeful cup.

Not just any cup, mind you.

This one was Mama’s cup.

Pottery glazed with bands

of moss green, saffron yellow,

orange, and creamy white;

painted swirls of leaves and vines,

touches of ripe, red berries.

There’s a small chip in the rim.

My lips don’t touch that spot

so long as I hold the handle just right.

Scratches show plinks and bumps

her cup endured every day.

It’s stained by thousands of ounces

of coffee she drank over the years.

I can’t throw away my mother’s cup

just because it’s chipped and worn.

I have my own chips and stains,

the marks and bruises of life.  

I have lots of cups in my cupboard,

graced with dozens of different designs:

angels, cherries, birds, and flowers.

Mugs bought in faraway places.

Big cups, small cups, tall, and short.

Fine china, gold rims—

I offer those to guests.

The same coffee from my kitchen

may pour into any of those cups,

but it doesn’t taste as good to me

as the coffee I drink from Mama’s cup.

                                                                                                Carroll S. Taylor

My Dancing Boots

My husband and I are headed to Scotland in the near future. We’ll be rambling in the Highlands, seeing the sights of the rugged terrain of the Isle of Skye, and taking a walking tour of Edinburgh, among other adventures taken on foot.

The tour company assures us that we won’t be walking any higher than 1500 feet in elevation. I’m not too worried about the elevation as long as it’s not straight up. In fact, our house in the North Georgia mountains sits at over 2000 feet.

But we are concerned about our shoes. So, we both went online and ordered ourselves a good brand of hiking boots. We’ve been wearing them around the house, in the yard, and even in the grocery store. Who wants to lug a pair of hiking boots all the way to Scotland, sacrificing precious luggage space, only to discover that they hurt like the dickens when we wear them?

A strange phenomenon occurred. I was walking around the grocery store last evening, and perky music was blaring out and filling every corner of the store. I discovered that my feet were moving faster than usual, as if I were on some sort of grand journey, hiking up and down the aisles at a brisk pace. Then all of a sudden, somewhere between the greeting card aisle and the detergents, my feet wanted to dance. Who dances in hiking boots?

Was there some kind of genie inhabiting my new boots? Was Terpsichore casting a spell of inspirational dance on my feet? I tried to control myself, but the beat of the music begged for dance steps.  I did manage to get in a few steps before the thought occurred to me: How must I look on the security camera? A lady of a certain age acting like a teenager.

Then I decided: My feet are happy. If my feet are happy, go with it.

Sissie’s mother was always worried about what other people might think. Sadly, as a proper Southern woman, so was my mother. On my birthday this month, I entered a new decade. As I was standing in the middle of the kitchen floor a few nights ago, thinking of my upcoming birthday, I raised my hands in the air and said in an overly loud voice, “Mama, I hereby declare that I no longer care what people think about me.”

My husband looked at me like I’d gone over the edge, which, in fact, I had—sort of. I actually jumped over the edge. We spend so much of our time seeking the approval of other people and worrying about what they think of us, when, in fact, their opinion doesn’t really matter. We rob ourselves of spontaneous joy and laughter. We lose touch with our innocence.

I thought about my grand pronouncement of independence when my feet suddenly felt happy. My boots were giving me freedom, and I gladly accepted their invitation. Now I’m ready to go wherever my dancing boots take me.

"Do unto others..."

This is a very old ruler.  In fact, I’m not even sure exactly how old it is. I think it was from my first or second grade year, so it’s been around for well over sixty years. I remember receiving three special items from Coca-Cola at the beginning of my school year: a wooden ruler with The Golden Rule printed on it, a thick writing tablet with pulpy, lined pages for writing in manuscript, and a shiny red pencil imprinted with the company logo.

We were rural students from families that didn’t have a lot of money, and we certainly didn’t have today’s electronic gizmos and blingy stick-on jewels. A ruler, a writing pad, and a pencil were special gifts to kids who didn’t have much.

Cokes were only five cents, and they were sold in six-ounce glass bottles. We could buy them at school during recess. There were always red, wood bottle crates stacked beside the Coke machine for the return of the empty bottles. At home, we saved our “soft drink” bottles to redeem for money at our local country store. That was our version of recycling before we knew what recycling was. Then we used the money to buy more bottled drinks or candy.

Of course, I loved the pencil, and I loved to write. Letters were magical to me, and the lined pages helped me learn to write proper manuscript and, later, cursive. But this ruler. I still remember reading the words: A Good Rule “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” The language was a higher level of standard English, not informal. Pretty highbrow for first graders. I remember reading those words for the first time, thinking about what they meant, and learning to repeat the words exactly.

I did a bit of research on the Coca-Cola official website, which said the company gave away millions of these rulers. I wonder how many school children read those words? How many of them took those words to heart? In today’s schools, bullying remains a huge problem. How much better would the lives of victims be if everyone practiced “The Golden Rule?” What if all students (and adults) decided to treat others the way they wished to be treated? There’s a simple word for that: empathy.

Adults need to clean up their act. Children are watching. Babies aren’t born with hearts filled with hate and prejudice. They aren’t born with the opinion that they’re better than other babies.  Those are learned behaviors, but learned behaviors can be un-learned, even though that can be a tough proposition. Wouldn’t it be much easier if children didn’t learn malice from the adults in their world at all?

More and more, every day, teenagers and even young children are committing suicide at an alarming rate. They cannot take the constant threats and belittling they receive from other students. Spud McKenna spends a sizable chunk of each day of his life dodging a bully in one form or another. Rusty Jackson, Raleigh Brown, Parley Wentworth, his teacher Miss Maude Jones, and even his own grandmother Pearl seem to zero in on Spud’s vulnerabilities. As a pivotal character in my books, Spud is a composite of every child or teenager who goes to school simply wanting to learn despite being picked on mercilessly because he or she is smaller than other classmates, precocious, quiet, nonathletic, highly intelligent, or “different” in any way. Sadly, there will always a bully—at the work place, in politics, in the military, on a university campus, on social media, and in public service jobs where there is absolutely no room for tormenting behavior. A boss who throws around power. A co-worker who belittles and makes others feel small to make himself or herself feel bigger, better, and more important. A relative who makes fun of a child’s weight or appearance.

Again, with children, in most cases those behaviors were learned from observation. There is no excuse for adults to behave in such a way. I especially like the fact that the Golden Rule is printed on a ruler. Perhaps, in simpler times, it reminded us as children that the way we treat others is a measure of our character. Adults could use some reminders as well.

Valley Resettlement Project

When choosing a setting for their fiction novels, many writers immediately gravitate to New York, Los Angeles, or Chicago, as if those settings somehow render their work more legitimate or profound. What’s wrong with setting a novel in an area the author knows? West Central Georgia is just as legitimate a locale as is Southern California or any other location. To me, the legitimacy of a novel lies primarily in its characters and what they have to say through their actions as well as their words. The link below will take you to information about President Franklin Delano Roosevelt's Valley Resettlement Project. You will learn a bit about Pine Mountain Valley and the valley houses I mention in my book setting.

http://georgiainfo.galileo.usg.edu/topics/historical_markers/county/harris/pine-mountain-valley-resettlement-project

Land of the Trembling Earth

I love my character Mr. Dewberry, an energetic young teacher. For me, he represents a teacher somewhat ahead of his time in 1960. Unlike so many of the teachers Spud and Sissie encounter in Slippery Branch Elementary School, the older ones who insist on prescriptive rote learning and strict discipline, Mr. Dewberry is excited about teaching. He creates a friendly learning environment where his students can experience the joy of learning. In a kind way, together with an older mentor, Miss Raven, he refuses to allow students to ridicule other students during their informative speech presentations. He senses how nervous his students are, and he tries to make them feel at ease about public speaking. He knows Sissie loves and respects reptiles and amphibians. In On the Other Side, in the chapter “Crossing Over,” Mr. Dewberry gives Sissie an assignment he thinks she’ll like:

     “… Mr. Dewberry asked us to write a two page report about something we found interesting in science. I wasn’t sure where to begin. Everything in science was interesting to me. He gave me a good suggestion.

      ‘You know, a lot of folks think they have to travel all over the world to find fascinating things. But sometimes the most amazing things are not that far away. Since you love reptiles and amphibians so much, why don’t you write about this topic?’

     He handed me a slip of paper with two words scribbled on it: Okefenokee Swamp. The more I read about the swamp, the more I loved it. The Okefenokee Swamp was the best of two worlds... snakes and spirits..."

When I wrote Mr. Dewberry’s assignment for Sissie, I suddenly realized: Now I need to do my part and visit the Okefenokee Swamp to do research for my next book, Chinaberry Summer: Down by the Water. I’ve often read about the swamp, and I’ve always been fascinated by the translation of Okefenokee's Native American name: “Land of the Trembling Earth.”

How many times have we driven through Waycross, Georgia, on our way to a summer vacation at Jekyll Island and Saint Simons Island? I’ve seen the roadside Okefenokee signs dozens of times over the years. But this year, my visit might finally happen. And it did!

Alligators! Alligators! Biting yellow flies that caused small spots of blood on my ankles because the flies’ saliva has an anticoagulant in it. Cottonmouths and coral snakes, though we didn’t see any snakes in the wild that day. It was too hot, so they were cooling off, hidden away under bushes and tall plants. We did see a mighty big, healthy timber rattler (canebrake) who was sharing a large glass cage with a sleepy diamondback rattlesnake in the nature area. Not to mention a huge black bear having a cool soak in what looked like a metal bathtub. Upwards of 900 black bears live in the swamp.

Sissie’s dream came true. I held a grey rat snake for the first time. Sissie’s favorite snake. We saw a sassy baby mud turtle in the nature presentation, but we weren’t allowed to hold it because it bites. I did get to hold a colorful male box turtle and learned how to tell the difference between the male and the female. The colors and the shapes of their carapace. The male is more colorful. The female’s carapace (shell) has a higher hump so she can store her eggs there before she finds a place to lay them.

And then there was the swamp water itself. Despite appearing to be black, the water is crystal clear. Clouds and trees create reflections on the surface of the water. It’s as if you’re looking down to see the blue sky above. The peat moss underneath gives the water its black appearance. Our boat guide told us the water is safe to drink and tastes slightly sweet from the cypress trees that grow in the water. He invited us to reach down and bring up a sample sip. No way was I going to put my hand in the water and drink a sip.

He also told us, “If you should fall out of the boat, don’t panic. Just stand up. The water is only three to five feet deep. Of course, something will have already eaten you by then.” At times it was difficult to concentrate on his presentation because of the yellow flies nibbling on my ankles. Oddly, their bites didn’t hurt. I just saw the blood trail they left behind. The guide added, “I’ve been donating to them all morning.” At least I was wearing long jeans, long sleeves, and a hat. Some people showed up (in a swamp) wearing shorts and T-shirts.

And there were turtles. Three big turtles were swimming together in a nature area, among others. In my photos, the turtles are hidden under the reflections of fluffy white skies on the water’s surface. I recognized their air bubbles in the middle of the cloud reflections.

We were duly warned. Sometimes when alligators are asleep, they appear lifeless, almost like fake props. Signs stated, “The Okefenokee Swamp Park has no fake alligator props in the outdoor areas.” Visitors must stay on the wooden walkways and must not approach a sleeping alligator. And no pets are allowed. I couldn’t help but shake my head. Someone actually had to warn visitors about fake gators and pets on leashes? Other signs said, "Do not spray insect repellent on you inside the gift shop." 

As we left the nature park that day, I came away with a renewed appreciation for the wild, untamed beauty of the Okefenokee, 700 square miles of a major ecosystem that’s considered one of the seven wonders of Georgia. And I came away with ideas for a chapter,  “Land of the Trembling Earth and Gemma.”

My precious husband Hugh has accompanied me to so many snake presentations and research forays, something I’m sure he didn’t sign onto when he married me forty-seven years ago. He tagged along this time for my visit to the swamp, but he cautioned me, “This is the only time I’m doing this.” We’ll see.

How big is that lizard?

I don’t have much patience with some people. You know, the ones who squeal in a shrill voice and jump around acting silly when they see a lizard or a harmless snake. I’ve heard those strange utterances coming from males and females alike, mostly adults. I want to say to them, “Look at yourself. How big is that lizard (or snake)? How big are you?”

A few years ago I was strolling through a local public garden. I heard three women screaming. I didn’t even need to investigate because I had already guessed the object of their fright. I just didn’t know what “kind” it was. I investigated anyway. The critter that struck terror in their hearts was a small garter snake scurrying across the dirt path. It was halfway under a bush when I finally spotted it.

Again, how big is that snake and how big are you?

Lizards and snakes are quick and crafty. They have been on our planet, in one form or another, for thousands of years. Their ancestors, the dinosaurs, were once walking around like bosses. But today’s snakes and lizards in the USA, unlike archaeopteryx, have one huge thing in common: They don’t have wings, so I can assure you -- they won’t be flying up and attacking you.

Forewarned is forearmed. That being said, educate yourself! For example, here in Georgia we have 46 kinds of snakes, but only six are venomous: Eastern Diamondback Rattlesnake, Pygmy Rattlesnake,  Cottonmouth, Timber Rattlesnake (Canebrake), Copperhead, and Eastern Coral Snake. Learn how to identify them and teach kids to do the same. You may be surprised. Kids often know much more about snakes than adults do.

The simplest response to a snake encounter is to walk away if you see one. A lizard, well, there’s no excuse for screaming and generally acting ridiculous because of a lizard. Lizards are amazing little creatures who are harmless to you unless you’re an insect.

I once was called over to a neighbor’s house. She was freaking out, in panic mode, because a lizard had slipped into her house. She had followed it into a bedroom. She informed me that she had already hit it with a broom and sprayed bug spray on it. Why?

I caught the frightened little critter in a jar, took it home, and released it in the woods. As I turned it out to freedom, I reminded the lizard, “You are one lucky little critter.”

I never forgot that poor lizard, so I incorporated a version of that story into Chinaberry Summer: On the Other Side. This time, it is Aunt Pearl who shows no mercy to a lizard who dares to venture into her pristine kitchen. Sissie and Spud manage to wrangle the little lizard into a Mason jar and release it outside on a nearby azalea bush before Aunt Pearl can inflict mortal wounds on the helpless critter.

Reptiles and amphibians are unique animals that serve a vital role in our ecosystem. They stand between “us and them.” Were it not for snakes, our crops would be overrun by rodents. Frogs and lizards eat enormous amounts of pesky insects.

Enjoy lizards in your yard. They are always on duty, doing their job. If one gets inside your house, it's not a big deal. Kindly put it outside. You don't have to like lizards, but you don't have to harm them either.

My advice to people who try to rid their yards of nonvenomous snakes is always this: You may not like the snakes, but you’re really not going to like what comes to live there when the snakes are gone.

How big is that snake? How big are you?

Written in Ink

In the chapter "The Great Poetry Writing Contest," Sissie writes a poem entitled "The Rat Snake." Spud asks her to read her finished poem to him, but she refuses. Her explanation is simple.

"Not just yet. It has to be written in ink first. That way it will officially be a poem."

Later at home Sissie sits down at the dining room table with a bottle of black ink, a sheet of crisp white paper, and her pink and gold fountain pen. She delights in the smooth feel of ink flowing on paper, not the sound of scratchy #2 pencil points.

My thoughts exactly. There is nothing quite like writing in fluid ink and allowing it to flow onto the page. It's as if a bit of my heart and soul slips out onto the sheet of paper along with the ink. I can't get the genuine touch of word to page any other way. Not a ball point pen or a gel pen, not a pencil that scratches its way across the paper, but an honest-to-goodness pen. For other writers, any kind of writing instrument may do just fine. As for me, I prefer my calligraphy pen.

A pen keeps a writer honest. Erasures are not an option. Oh, there may be scratch-outs galore, but the writer's process and mistakes are still visible. A writer or a poet can't hide in ink. Even a heavy blot of ink that attempts to cover a word or two is a sign of a slip-up or a change of heart.

And almost always some of my ink finds a way to stain my fingertips. But that's okay. It proves the human and ink connection. This poem or this note was written by a human being who was making a commitment to the written words.

Sometimes the ink smudges. That's okay, too. The smudges are me. At times a poem may present itself in manuscript and at other times in cursive. And after the ink dries, it's not simply sitting on the surface of the paper. It has found a way to seep into the very fibers of the page. It exists for real. It has become a poem.

I find joy and freedom in allowing my thoughts to flow through the ink of my pen into what I am creating. The work is uniquely mine, created with pen in hand. It's official.

Yes, I write my book drafts on the computer. But all over the house I have slips of paper and notebook sheets with inky notes scribbled by the nib of my pen. Maybe it's a plot idea, a snippet of dialogue, a brief description, or lists of characters.  Maybe it's a line or two of a future poem. The notes are everywhere. Sometimes I have to do a walkabout to find them all.

Books have their own temperament. But, for me, the nature of a poem demands immediate commitment. A poem can be written so many different ways, and it might never actually be finished. So the ink seals the deal. Enough. Commit to the words. It's now officially finished.

In "The Great Poetry Writing Contest," it will soon be Valentine's Day in Slippery Branch, and students are to write a poem about something they love. Of course, Sissie loves snakes, and the final version which she submits is written in ink. In her mind, it's complete. Whether she realizes it or not, the truth is that her poem is now dressed and ready to go. Sissie has moved into that dreaded realm that so many writers understand. A place of great vulnerability. She has not simply submitted a poem. She has revealed a piece of her soul to be scrutinized and judged by others.

[SPOILER ALERT]

Although she wins the grand prize for her poem, her accomplishment is not without difficulty. A teacher, Miss Maude Jones, accuses her of plagiarism. Not because of the quality of the poem, but because the irascible Miss Jones simply cannot believe that Sissie is capable of writing a poem, especially one about a snake. After all, Sissie is a girl, and girls just don't write about snakes. Sissie is unyielding. She is honest. Because she nurtures her poem from its birth as an idea until its final draft in ink, "The Rat Snake" is officially a poem. In fact, it is officially her poem.

Sissie is right. When a poem is at last presented in ink, it's ready. It's dressed, and its hair is combed. It's not running around in its underwear. By writing her poem in ink, Sissie shows reverence and respect for her subject. Her poem is, after all, a paean to something she holds dear, a much maligned yet valuable creature in our ecosystem. Not only does Sissie love snakes, but she also values their importance and understands their worth as God's creatures.

Maybe her approach to writing poetry is childish and simplistic; however, in her uncomplicated perspective, Sissie reveals truthfulness, determination, and reverence for writing ̶  important standards for a life well lived and a poem well written. In ink, of course.

In Memoriam: The Death of Innocence

            Sissie Stevenson and Spud McKenna grew up in a much simpler time. There were no social media posts, smart phones, texts, selfies, or any high tech electronic gadgets and gizmos. Just the one black rotary-dial phone attached to a cord running to the telephone jack on the baseboard. Just the local radio station or an old black and white TV until the NBC peacock tail turned into rainbow colors on the screen of the new RCA color TV in Sissie's living room right before the Cartrights rode up in Bonanza. Kids played outside until dusk, and the greatest fear in their world was accidentally stepping on a venomous snake or getting struck by lightning in a summer storm. Or getting the full blast of Mama's evil eye.

            But there were moments of awakening along the way. Spud's grandmother Sharon and his mother Rose explained that teen-aged girls in their day who found themselves "in the family way" were not allowed to complete their high school education, while the teen-aged fathers were often allowed to go on with life, often without consequences, unless their families forced them to marry each other. Sissie and Spud witnessed their friends at school being bullied by other students. Or, in Spud's case, he actually experienced bullying at school by students and by his teacher, Miss Maude Jones; and then he went home to be belittled even more by Aunt Pearl. They learned from their school friends Joe Borders and Jack Hammer what it was like to be physically abused and neglected by a parent and the lasting effects of constant mistreatment. Both Sissie and Spud experienced what it was like to have a relative or friend die suddenly without warning. They grew to understand the relentless power of a tornado or the painful effects an unexpected spider bite.

            Along with Sissie and Spud, I grew up in those simpler times. Everything wasn't rosy and perfect. My school building had no real heating system, and there certainly was no air-conditioning. I suspect that some teachers said and did things back then that today would become viral videos on YouTube or CNN. And not for good reasons. On one day in particular I guess my fifth grade teacher had had enough of a student in our class and subsequently experienced a meltdown. She shoved the student against the blackboard, grabbed him by his shoulders, and shook him against the blackboard while repeatedly calling him a jackass. Like I said, no smart phones and viral videos back then. My classmate lived, and he's a nice guy.

            But, overall, we never genuinely feared for our lives. There were no gunmen lurking around with an AR-15 ready to take us all out with a backpack full of bullets. We didn't need to lock ourselves in our classroom and hide quietly in a corner of the room waiting for a gunman to decide who lived and who died. In fact, throughout my school career, especially in high school, the only time a police officer ever came to our school was as a guest speaker.

            I spent over forty years teaching students from kindergarten through university. The Columbine shooting happened on my birthday. Countless other shootings have taken place since then. I taught in open college classrooms that I could not lock. I have been surrounded by ground level classroom windows and doors with glass panels. As a college instructor, after Virginia Tech occurred, I wondered: What is my plan? How can I protect my students? Will I rise to the occasion should the unthinkable occur?

             And here we are today, yet again, trying to make sense of something that will never make sense. Trying to understand what will never be understood, no matter how much pundits spin. No matter how much politicians try to blame the other party. Another school shooting. Another individual striking out against the sanctity and scholarship of a public school. A troubled man-child carrying a weapon of war into a place of peace. A weapon he should never have possessed at all.

            Yesterday was both Ash Wednesday and Valentine's Day. I imagine there was lots of red throughout Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School  ̶  hearts, carnations, roses, and balloons. Maybe small stuffed animals were exchanged between friends. Maybe the cheerleaders or the SGA or the Senior Class was selling flowers as a fundraiser. Yes, I imagine there was lots of red everywhere. And after the gunman completed his rampage, there was more red left in his wake.

            Indulge me as I return to my past again. My graduating class had 67 students with an overall school population of 350 plus. All of the faculty knew us, and they knew our parents. Many of today's high schools have two or three thousand students who are herded from class to class throughout the day. It is easy for a troubled student to slip into complete anonymity in a crowded world where very few know many others, and small circles of friends become tight and exclusive. Teachers can't possibly know every student who passes through the crowded hallways. Social media provide relentless platforms for bullies to torment their victims and for shadowy groups to offer enticing dark websites where students do not need to venture.

             Since the unthinkable events unfolded in Parkland yesterday afternoon, over and over I have heard weeping mothers and fathers on TV, their anguish palpable because they will never see their children grow up. They will never realize what their children would have become as adults. One mother grieved aloud because she wasn't there to protect her daughter. And all the seventeen souls did was simply go to school to teach or to learn.

            Weapons have no place in our institutions of learning. Bullying has no place there either. It would be nice to live in "idyllic times," but those times do not exist. Perhaps they never really did. But once upon a time innocence lived. It lived in the hearts and minds of learners of all ages who carry their pencils, notebooks, textbooks, and hopes to their schools in search of an education. Innocence lived in the hearts and minds of parents who put their trust in the American government to keep their precious ones safe. Innocence lived in the hearts and minds of educators who work long hours and care about their students, even though those educators are often underpaid and disrespected.

            Innocence died yesterday. It has, in fact, already died a number of times in 2018 in schools all around America, with dozens more school shootings in just the past few years. Innocence has also died at concerts, clubs, and churches.

            Spud finally had enough of bullies. He had enough of people in power who did nothing. Some of those powerful people made his life even more difficult. We find ourselves in the same predicament on a much larger scale. In Chinaberry Summer /On the Other Side, he sums up the loss of innocence after a very troubling encounter with a violent bully at school.

            "You know, Sissie, I just don't understand it. Why can't we go to school to learn in peace? Why is there always someone there who just wants to start trouble? Why is that? You shouldn't have to risk your life to go to school."

            Innocence, may you rest in peace.

Dowdell's Knob

     "All  this bad weather's not comin' over Dow'ell's Knob and settlin' on the valley. It's blowin' in from the west," Daddy explained.

Dowdell's Knob appears in both of my books. In fact, it's the setting for Chapter 12, "Destination Unknown," in Chinaberry Summer. The name may be spelled Dowdell's Knob, but local folks pronounce the name Dow'ell with one syllable. Click on the link to learn more about the amazing history and beauty of Dowdell's Knob.

https://www.atlantatrails.com/fd-roosevelt-state-park/dowdells-knob-loop-pine-mountain-trail/

Wild Black Honeybees

In the chapter "Love at First Sight," including Davey Morris as a student who suffers through the embarrassment of stuttering while giving a speech in front of his sixth grade classmates was a purposeful decision, although I didn't initially set out to create a character who stutters.  It may sound strange, but my character Davey decided to stutter. I allow my characters to develop on their own, and I don't force them to fit perfectly into my preconceived notions. I don't write my books  with a clear, sharp idea of the fullness of my characters. They seem to develop traits on their own. They have their own unique voices and personalities. And I allowed Davey to be Davey. He first appears in Chinaberry Summer,  while receiving a severe tongue-lashing from Miss Maude Jones because he dares to talk in line, and later on he tries his best to explain to the principal why Sissie isn't at fault for the class bully Rusty Jackson's unfortunate encounter with a common Southern toad. I decided to bring him back again in On The Other Side.

Among the storytellers in my family was my grandfather, Grover Cleveland Smith. Born in April 1892, he unfortunately lived in a time when high blood pressure and strokes dogged so many people, and not many medications were available to treat blood pressure problems or prevent strokes. So there he was, a man who stood six feet three and was rail thin, felled by a stroke at 65. He remained bedridden at home and passed away in 1960 at the age of 68.

Before his massive stroke left him unable to talk well, we often sat together on the front porch in the swing, and he told me stories between drawing puffs of his Camel cigarettes or cigarettes he rolled from the tobacco in his can of Prince Albert tobacco he carried in his overalls' pocket. Neither of those vices helped his blood pressure issues, and he always walked with a homemade cedar cane because of previous small strokes he had suffered through the years. He told me lots of stories, a few of which have appeared in my books. I loved to hear him describe what it was like going to school when he was a young boy. His turtle hunting. The games he played as a child. The friends and relatives he knew that I would never know except through his stories. I  thought he was old, because, well, I was in the single digits of my youth. And he did look older than a man his age would look today because of his ongoing health problems.

He wore a hearing aid, the kind with a wire that extended from his ear down to a shirt pocket where he kept the battery. He lost much of his hearing in his twenties training stateside for World War I, a war he never saw because heavy artillery training damaged his ear drums.

A few years ago after a family member passed away, we were greeting guests at the visitation in a nearby town. That funeral home has seen more than one of my relatives safely delivered to the cemetery. One of the local folks, Mr. Marion, came up to my sister and me and struck up a conversation.

"I knew your granddaddy, Mr. Grover. In fact, I remember the time he tangled up with some wild black honeybees in the woods." Mr. Marion was quite a storyteller himself.

I already knew that my grandfather had tried his hand at robbing honey from beehives when he was younger, but he usually carried a smoker and wore a protective net. It seems that particular time his gear failed him. He had to run for cover and jump  in a creek as the angry bees stung him all the way there. He had apparently regaled Mr. Marion with the bee misadventure.

Mr. Marion went on to tell us, "Them bees sure do sting, don't they, Mr. Grover?"

"Y-yep, they sh-sure d-do!"

Outwardly, I chuckled at the story and pictured the scene in my head, but , like Sissie, my mind was suddenly struck by a question that needed an answer.

One of the last times I visited my late Aunt Janie, I asked, "Did Pa stutter?"

She smiled. "He sure did, baby."

How did I not know that? How did I not remember that?  Fifty  years had passed, and I had no recollection that my grandfather stuttered. Then an explanation hit me.

I didn't remember Pa's stuttering, not because I was young, but because I loved hearing his stories. I simply didn't notice. I didn't concern myself with judgments and observations. I cared about him. I loved spending time with my grandfather, and I wanted to hear what he had to say. And sitting in that swing with me, just a man talking to his young granddaughter, must have given him a sense of ease that he could talk to me and pass down the stories and adventures of his life without worrying about how he spoke. Without worrying about being judged.

So when Davey stands before the class, it takes an enormous amount of courage for him to give his informative speech about the beautiful barred owl that patiently rests on his arm. His uncle is there giving him moral support, and the serene owl serves as his "wing man."

It is my sincere hope that young people or adults who read my books will find characters that speak to them. Maybe readers will learn from Davey that it's more important to hear what Davey and others like him in the real world wish to say rather than how they express themselves . Maybe Davey will speak to a young reader who feels marginalized by some aspect of his own speech or physical appearance. Maybe someone who feels embarrassed or fearful to speak in front of classmates will identify with Davey.

And, by the way, an owl really did wink at me during an informative speech in the sixth grade. And I have loved owls every day of my life since then.